"It's Alive!"

Hello my spring flings,

It’s the last day of March! (Heads up: This is not a "look at the cool stuff I've done in London" post. Close your browser if that's what you want. One day it will be that again.)

I had to get up early this morning — around 5:15am. I laid in bed until 6:00am, which was a mistake, of course, as I couldn’t be bothered to speed up my morning routine and arrived at the studio a bit later than I’d wanted to.

I trotted down the three flights of stairs and I picked up a letter from my mom as I headed out the door. It was a lovely, long letter — not only was it a nice catch-up letter, she also wrote many supportive things that I needed to hear.

A big part of me likes the challenge of being alone and navigating new situations by myself, but it has been a difficult couple of months for me mentally. Things have ended that I wasn’t expecting to end. People haven’t been very welcoming or nice to me here. I’ve never felt so burnt out.

A couple of things that have helped to read:

“Hot tip for when you feel lost: Instead of OH SHIT I DON’T RECOGNIZE MYSELF OR CARE ABOUT ANYTHING??? Try: I HAVE ARRIVED AT A SACRED EVOLUTIONARY PORTAL TO MY FUTURE SELF. Repeat 8,000 times. Cut your hair off. Be of assistance. Trust that you will continue to become.” -Emily McDowell 

“Our souls come to this earth school to learn valuable lessons as beings and for the planet. What are you being taught right now? This moment may require hard work, but it will have many long-lasting rewards. You are not being punished, but are gaining tools and experience for living that will be with you for the rest of your life. Although it may seem depressing on the surface, Saturn’s role in astrology is to bring meaning and structure to our lives." - Sacred Symbols Oracle Deck by Marcella Kroll

For a year+, I would take a selfie almost every day and text it to my mom. The photos were a way to say hi and so she could see my face. This weekend I looked back at a lot of those photos, starting in December 2023. What a different face I had! All of my highs and lows are clearly etched on my face now. I know that I look different. I think I like it.

Life lately:

© Sara Hagale

© Sara Hagale

© Sara Hagale

While I don’t have the energy to connect with you all in the ways and frequency that I thought I would, just know that I am still here. I'm still trying. This experience is much different than I thought it was going to be and I’m learning how to accept all the things that go along with that.

Here’s to life lessons, clarifying experiences, and knowing that someday, maybe without even realizing it, things will be better. I look forward to it. (Just like I look forward to eating this chonky piece of shortbread with dark chocolate chips next to me.)

Wishing you all the absolute best.

Till next time,

Your WereMack in London